Am I Dumb?

Am I dumb.

People tell me that I'm smart and sometimes I actually believe them. I guess everyone is pressured to be "smart". What even is the definition of smart? To be smart isn't to know everything. I know people who can be considered as "smart". Those people make me feel bad about myself. It's really hard to be angry at someone when they're your friend.

I don't want to hate anyone, but no one is pure. We all make mistakes. My parents say they were amazing children when they were young. I don't know who to believe. I don't know what's true anymore. I feel as though I am losing my mind, but in secret. I can't contain this feeling inside me anymore.

Courage, kindness, and loyalty are things that can't be measured by a grade or test score. I might not be the smartest or most beautiful person in the world, but neither are you. Everyone has imperfections. It's not your flaws that make you beautiful, but hiding them won't make you any prettier. Just never forget that your not the only one that have them.

As cliche as it sounds, you really are beautiful. Think about it! There is only one you. Even if you have a twin, I bet you can notice the differences. I had this one teacher who would always tell us to think that instead of starting 0 and getting to 100, that we're starting with a 100 and we have to maintain it.

I bet you even the smartest person in your school has gotten bad grades before. In a way, bad grades are actualy good. As crazy as this sounds, it is true. The next time you get a grade you're upset about, think of it as this: a motivation.

To be honest, I don't know how to put the thoughts I have in my mind into words and maybe that's why I am thought to be crazy by my friends. I think that we all have great ideas and that everyone should be given a chance. You never know. Today's "idiot" can be tomorow's "genius".

There are many students in my schoo that teachers underestimate. I am very thankful for every teacher I've ever had and ever will have, but I don't like how they base their judgement. I'll tell you an example.

Let's see....

Let's say that their is this boy named Michael. Today is Michael's first day at school and Michael has a great feeling that it's going to be a good day. Now, Michael thinks that since his parents were previous students at that school, that the teachers will recognize his face and will be easy on him.

Now let's bring in Cady.

Cady is also looking forward to her first day at that school.

On the very first day, everything goes well for both Michael and Cady. The teachers are kind to both of them. Two of the teachers and a janitor even recognized Michael's face. Michael and Cady even have lunch and some other classes together and eventually become friends.

Now let's skip to 2 years later.

Now Michael and Cady are both Juniors and regions are coming up. Both Michael and Cady feel pressured to get good grades because in their minds, they secretly think the other is better. Cady thinks Michael has it easier. He always seems to be happy and has a way with teachers and he also always seems to get good grades without lifting a finger. Michael wishes he had Cady's life. To him, she seems to always pass every class and everyone seems to like her.

The sad thing is that niether one of them will truly ever know what the other's thoughts of them are.

Someone might look like they have the perfect life, grades, looks - whatever, but they don't.

One man's trash is another man's treasure.

I'm sorry you had to read this, but I am really glad that you did. The title might be misleading, but it did catch your attention.